First time lyrics writing

So, this is my first time writing lyrics to a song. WOW! It was an eye opening experience, I never thought that I could be this artist in writing (SiaoZaBo). So this is what I had wrote and proposed to them.

It’s the day, the first step,

Anxiety filled me, then our eyes catch,

easiness swept through me,

I know we all felt the same.

Those awkward smiles had become friendlier ones

The string around us, thickens as time passes

What we had was short, but strong in our hearts

even we stopped saying goodbye, the memories are all inside

Simple talk, awkward smiles

Then comfort mocking and relax bearing

ever craving for the next meeting

How fast for us to be close acquaintance

In this Big city full of beautiful lights,

At times where my visions are blinded, you came by

took my hand and guide, 

it’s like we get to see tomorrow’s sunrise 

hand in hand marched towards the bright light 

The world before seems black and white,

But with you, they are all sparks and lights.

What we had was short, but strong in our minds

even we stopped saying goodbye, the memories are all still inside

Although in the end, only some parts are used but I'm still very happy :) And I get to sing my part ^.^
It's so obvious that I'm totally clueless during the first recording. I had no confidence in my voice and it kinda burdens the others too. So for next recording, i'm gonna work very very hard, mentally prepared myself for it. As this song is ours, every part of it had all those pieces of us in it. I really hoped that it will be a big success. 

I'm totally a newbie, still learning on how to do follow the melody and the beat, and singing (opps, I'm really bad at it). I kinda enjoy writing it and now planing to have a project with that sigui rui XDDD

Nothing is forever

Still adjusting to the life at here. In this big city, there are too much lonely souls. Everyone is hiding something, they are afraid of being judge by others, whether the others are friends or strangers. Afraid that if they just be themselves, they will not be accepted by this world or even worst, by those whom they really gave a shit in. Lonely it is. Not being able to be accepted as who they truly are. Being judged by those peoples, who they think they really are? God? Prosecutors? They are just humans too. It may be that they are being judged before too, so it's a cycle, where It won't stops until one stops.

I do need the courage which Taylor Swift has, not being afraid to those who judges. Since when, I cared that much about what the others thinks about me. It had just became a bigger and bigger burden in me, where until the point I can't be who I really was. Since when? Is it because of her? Please just stop this cycle. I'm not going to judge anyone, please just stop. I want to be able to stand, head strong, look into the eyes of those who hates me, seeing my own laughing face.

I'm shaky in the inside, felt insecure about this big city, nothing seems eternity. But then I remind myself that nothing is eternity, there aren't be anything that will be with you forever. Love fades, friendship betrayal, material stuffs wore and tears, nothing is eternity, Chia Yee! It's time to be myself, to be who I really meant to be. Just believe in your heart and you will get to the place you should. Nothing is forever - Yong Jun Hyung.

Just Lost.

This year, 2014, had been a tough one. There are so many ups and downs, gets and loses. I'm pulling up a tough image on the outside, but inside, it's shaky, felt like I'm going to shattered anytime soon. There are times where I just stare in blank even when I'm with a group of people. The Taiwanese boy band which I once loved, I had stop listening to them now. It's not that I'm tired of them, It's just that their songs just reminds me of someone I had just lost this year. After the day she'd passed away, I just found out how she had enjoyed this boy band so much. Listening to their song, especially "Tian Shi" really tears me apart. That day in the karaoke, their song was sang by my friend, without them knowing, I weeped as soon as the song starts. Sometimes It was just too much, I'm kinda lost in this big city. My aim is not clear, I don't know what I'm seeing, which steps to be taken. Lost. Lost. Lost.
And now I'm not sure what I'm talking about -_-. Well, this could counts as one of those failed posts.

Since when Fb had become such a public social site? I can't really share stuffs which are negative as not to even more pollute it. *Signs* Looks like I only had you, My Dear Dear bloggie :D

I'm 20. Had the best night in my life.

I'm officially 20 now. On 19/11/2014 1:10am. 20 years had past. Here I am now, in the capital city of this country. There are times where I felt alone, being left out, away from home. I really do think that I'm gonna spent my Birthday alone again. But really, I swear to God, this 20th Birthday is totally the best in my life! It's really a big surprise!! My BFF knows that i enjoyed bring low-key, so usually during da-day, they will just bring me out for a meal. But this year, really caught me off guard. Thanked God I get the time to change into a nicer shorts, or not it will ruined everything!!8 of u all, planned this without me knowing, now i get why I were asked of whether I liked chocolates, which unit I'm staying and so on!! So sneaky of u all :). It was an unforgettable Birthday, good memories which i will treasure in my heart. I'm bad in expressing myself, and this is the best way I'm confident that I can tell them what I really felt for today. So now its the time to thank them, for their efforts on giving me such a wonderful Birthday.

Like a Boss. LOL. ZX your pose cnt change d hor? :D

ZX: U!! Being so cool on the outside, I would never know you are so passionate in the inside if we haven't been in the same course. Thank you for always being with me, helped me out when I was down and cared for me. And that time too, when you asked me whether i'm thirsty or not. At that moment, I know that it will be the first and the last time you doing this to me :D.

AC: You who doesn't expressed yourself much had showed the other side of yours today. What a surprise!! The time we spent together weren't much, I hoped that we get to know each other more in the future. :D

PL: You too! That kind heart of yours and cheerfulness had always washed away all my bad thoughts I had in mind. And I'm totally going to the karaoke with you for the rest of 4 years!! That sweet voice of yours really touched me every time u sings. ;)

ZL: I hoped I didn't get your name wrong >.<. You and PL are always so cute, with all those super cute reactions, always ends my day with a big smile :D. Hoped that we can get closer too ^^.

XY: I never thought that you will celebrate my birthday!! It really meant a lot to me :D. Let's get closer and be the strength to each other^^. And bring me to your hometown once, really curious about  the other side of Msia.

YY: You har, bad girl. Lied to me. Make me disappointed at first. But after that really give me a surprise lo. Hahax, siaozabor! Thx for being there for me when I needed help most, Love ya XOXO.

H: I was surprised to hear guys voices when you all were singing Happy Birthday song. It's the first time, other than my relatives, there are guy friends who celebrated my Birthday. And your voice, is really really good :D. Thanks for singing at the karaoke, really felt like I'm in the middle of a concert. And always accompanies us back whenever its late. And finally felt that you are very man when paying for the karaoke. :D Jz jk ^^.

JY: You too, who lived more than 20 mins walk away, came here. I really really appreciate that you kept your promise, to sing for us when we go to the karaoke. And you rapped My Oppa's part. It's really daebak!! I don't think I can forget that :DD. It's a pity that I didn't get to record it down. >.<. Definitely going to the karaoke with u guys again!! Its a concert!!

It's really been an enjoyable night and its kinda sad that it ends so fast. I'm still being overwhelmed by those happiness and positive energises you all gave me just now :DDD. Thanks for not letting me celebrating da-day alone, rotting myself in the room with all those videos of Oppa's. I will cherished this night until I got Alzheimer's. :DDD. At last, I hoped that everyone of us will have good health and no ones gets to repeat another sem :D Be happy too ^^

Hand. Grab. Hand

SO there's this guy, who i barely know, where we met at the faculty's general office for the first time. He's blocking half of the narrow hallway, where my friend and I are walking towards another friend of mine. I don't really saw his face, just his voice "Sorry" and him shifting towards the wall. But still our bags brushes to each other's. Do I already paid attention to him since that time? I don't really recall.

Then there's this second time where during the welcoming concert for freshmen's, him and this one typical banana (means Chinese who doesn't know Chinese) was like suddenly being so excited for liking the same singer. This singer is then i found out he is the Jason M'raz, who I was mistaking with David Guetta. That's just so humiliating. =.=. The third time is where we were being grouped as a team during campus hunt through this very lousy game. And with everyone looking at each other or at the ground, he volunteered to become the leader. Thus, named our team as hungry chickens and the slogan 'We are hungry, don't make us angry'. A great laugh, indeed.

The instance when i was attracted to him is during a game where we as a team being blind folded and as the leader, he needs to listen to the instructor's whistle carefully while the other team being the distractor. The moment his hands grabbing mine, the time where i was blinded by the dark cloth, something went through my whole body. So, this is it. The warmth of his hands bring thrills to my heart. Just as what the love songs, novels and movies says, electrical jolts from my head to the toes. It's a pleasant feeling though. Being able to have my hands wrapped warmly, makes me realised how long is it since the last time I'm being held my someone other than me. I don't know whether he felt anything at all, but all, ALL sorts of feeling ran through my body and my heart.

Since then, I'm doomed. All i could think of is him before sleep. So, this is love-struck. Unpredictable. Uncontrollable. Well, I'm going to end this feeling anyway. Seem's like he had got this important girl in his life. It's the right person during the bad time again.  There are no what ifs. I'm sure this time. :/

The greatest dilemma ever

I'm very stressed out these few days. Pimples are starting to popped up on my forehead. Like every other 20-year-old Malaysians, I'm having the greatest dilemma ever since i had born.

It's when i had to decide where and what to study for my university course. Seriously, I'm from a typical conservative Asian (especially Chinese) Family. My further study choices are just limited to those so-called professional courses, which are Doctor, Lawyer, Engineer, Pharmacy and Dentistry. I had a above average results, which means that i'm totally forced to choose those courses as they don't care whether i'm interested in it or not, they just imagined that i will handle well and graduate to be those professionals.

Since i didn't get Dentistry for my local university intake, that means the choices just narrowed down to only engineering. But the truth is, I don't like engineering. Nope, I DESPICED anything that related to Physics. I can't understand what all those theorems are for about. What I want to study is the course related to either Biology or Chemistry or both. Biochemistry really catches my eyes. I find the course fascinating and I liked what it studies.

I'm always the soft one. I couldn't let them disappointed. Does that mean i really need to give in and study Material and Manufacturing Engineering? What should I do?

Looking back and starting again

It's been quite a long time since the last post I wrote. Let me update my current situation.

• Finished STPM Term 3,
•  nothing to do until August 2014,
•  will be a Switcher in few more days. 

So, Last month(December 2013) is a adventurous and cheerful one. Immediate after STPM examination, my family and I went to Bangkok for 4 days and 3 nights. I was so excited and looking forward to it. It's been my dream to go there since 11. The whole journey is fine for me except for the accommodation part. We had basicly booked the wrong hotel as for the location of it is not suitable walking at night. So we spent our time watching TV in our hotel room after 6pm. Overall, I'm really satisfied with the Sky Train system in Bangkok. The directions are clear and written in English, and the stations are near to most of the tourist attractions. I will go there again, maybe in 5 years time.

The view of Bangkok from my hotel room window.

A week after Bangkok, I had joined my relatives on a tour to Pangkor Island. We spent only 2 days 1 night at there as Pangkor is a very small island.  The view is amazing. The water is near to crystal clear and the weather is really nice. It's just that there are too many tourists. The most famous beach in Pangkor, Tanjung Nipah is totally full of Malaysians and foreigners. It's quiet hard to find a spot where you can sit back and relax. The chalet we stayed are quiet comfy and clean. The breakfast provided is traditional Malaysian food where most of the visitors can accept. 

The near crystal clear water at Tanjung Nipah.

Pangkor Island.

After going to all these places, I had finally starting to sit down and plan what job should I be doing for the free time. After applying for numerous jobs, then Switched called. I had an interview scheduled for the next day. And I got the job! This is really a dream come true for me. I had always wanted to be a Switcher. I'm so nervous right now as I will be trained tomorrow to become a qualified Switcher. Wish me luck guys. I had done homework and I hope I will outshine myself during this time working in Switch. So, I'm going to end this. Happy New Year Everyone and cherish your time in 2014.

Love,

JC.