Perfectionist

Yes, I am one, wouldn't denied that.But not in every aspect, just one, and that's my love life. Kinda hoped that I would get a handsome BF just like Big Bang's T.O.P, height which at least 180cm and above, great bodyline, intelligent, humor, sporting, good in socializing, great family background and most of all, the one who could accept me as who I am. Well you know, of course I haven't yet met this kind of guy before because he was like 100% perfect without any weakness.

Apart from outer appearance, I do kinda wished to have a romantic lover. Well, it's not like giving me non stop of surprises or doing something really insane for me, it's just that he would listen to me and then take notice of every little tiny details about me :) Like remember that i hate eating tauge so no tauge in any meals or the date of my ms and kindly remind me to be prepared.

Yes yes, I know I know. I should stop dreaming right now, this instance. But this had become kinda a disease, sure will happen whenever I meet a guy. Conflicts on my own will pop up, doubting my faith in his, 'Is he THE ONE?' , 'Does he deserved to be with you?','Shouldn't he treat you more nicely?', 'He's not that good,isn't he?', 'Are you SURE you wanna be with him?'. It was like wanna ask everything from him, wanting him to become THE ONE,not himself and i felt selfish and arrogant.

This really tired's me off. Battling with my own thoughts, fighting back every accusing of him, disappointment of him. Kinda lost at here. Felt the loneliness creeps up every second, unsecureness was like gonna swallowed me down. Its not their problem, it's just mine. My perfection after lover

P.s. This is my ideal guy from now on :D

Driving me crazy

Well,I don't like saying this but I think I'm going nuts. You might think that "Hey,you just get your SPM results and had finished serving the National Service, is there anything really buggs you?" Unfortunately, yes. There are tons of things in my life is gonna crush me into bits =.= 



First, driving licence . Yup, I still haven't get any test or exams and haven't sit for the talk. When i'm still thinking that there is still plenty of time left, then our dear and sweet gouverment hits me in the head. They are changing the "Undang" exam system. The exam is suppose to do it by computer and now they wants it in essay starting this June. This news surely makes me fell of my chair and freaks me out. Imagine Undangs in essay, WOW sounds like a Sejarah paper for me. The pressure is up and i'm gonna register for the exam next week. Wish me luck :)

Next, my weight problem . After NS, my weight just surged up. Thanks to the Hell-Like NS, my family,friends and relatives keep asking me out and taking me for breakfast,lunch and dinner. That may sounds great to you but bad to my weight :( There is one friend of my who do care for my health and brought me to the park for a walk ( although i'm wearing heels that day and we just had lunch). Hurray for him xD ( Out of his "kindness", he asked whether wants to have a mango ice later but i said no )

Gonna start exercise again :)

Then, my friends . After getting the results, a lot of my friends had already applied for colleges and succeed. Some of them had gone already but i really do missed them :( Now just left me and some who can't afford to go for a private university and still waiting for any miracles in this small small town. Pathetic it is . But still I'm happy for my friends who had go on their lives and good luck for any scholarship replies.

Last but not least, my grandma. She just had a operation on Monday. Although the operation is a success,but she's now suffer from the so-called 'After operation effects'. She barely can walks and her leg is in pain. It s painful to watch,don't mention who is suffering it. I'm really worried about her and hurts me when she's in pain. I'm going to take care her because my aunt is quiet bsy with her work. Let's hope that she will recover soon :)

Yup,I had finished complaining. Since i had no one to talk to, so i just write them here :)

Byez. Will update something soon :)

P.S. I'm quiet sad to find out that you are leaving soon,But still good luck and study hard in Singapore. <3