Sudden Hormone Disorder

Its been a while since i written the last post. Things are doing great for me starting this year. I had new friends and better grades, but still somehow i felt depressed.  I felt that there is something missing in my life. Im not satisfied by how things are now. I want to have a better relationships with my new friends. I want to be closed to others other than my current bffs. But i don't know how since i sucks in socializing. Am i being too greedy? Should i just be happy with what i have now? Im just so confused. 😞

I hope that things will go well after time. Maybe its just my hormones getting weird or what. Fighting CY!!!!! U can do it :)

P.S. Btw im watching this sooooo cool korean drama named 'I hear your voice'. Im soooo into this actor right now :)

Jong suk oppa, fighting!!!

Thanks , cute guy.

Who knew that small things in life will makes a big change to you? 

As usual, I'm going on the bus after school. There was no other place sit besides the front role with a small guy on it. Those watery eyes, reflects how nervous and doubtness he had when I sat beside him.He, 3 or 4 years old, holding a pillow which was covered with dirt, sweat over the hairs and that crumple old tee which probably is his bro's, took a glance at me then turned towards the window.

Seeing him hugging that pillow, reminds me how alike are we. There is this set of pillow and bolster which my aunt made specially for me when I'm 6 years old. I don't really get along with my cousins and I'm always the one who is left out. So, they are made to be my 'companion' and I used to carry them around. I had been using for more than 10 years and it's really mean a great lot for me. 

Looking him with his pillow makes me realized that sometimes by having one precious thing in your life is enough. It may be anything, physical or abstract, as long as it is something that reminds you of who you are and where you can share a memory of it with others. By then, my day lights on, the hardship which I bare had gone, left the lesson which I had just learnt to know. 

Thanks, cute guy.