I'm 20. Had the best night in my life.

I'm officially 20 now. On 19/11/2014 1:10am. 20 years had past. Here I am now, in the capital city of this country. There are times where I felt alone, being left out, away from home. I really do think that I'm gonna spent my Birthday alone again. But really, I swear to God, this 20th Birthday is totally the best in my life! It's really a big surprise!! My BFF knows that i enjoyed bring low-key, so usually during da-day, they will just bring me out for a meal. But this year, really caught me off guard. Thanked God I get the time to change into a nicer shorts, or not it will ruined everything!!8 of u all, planned this without me knowing, now i get why I were asked of whether I liked chocolates, which unit I'm staying and so on!! So sneaky of u all :). It was an unforgettable Birthday, good memories which i will treasure in my heart. I'm bad in expressing myself, and this is the best way I'm confident that I can tell them what I really felt for today. So now its the time to thank them, for their efforts on giving me such a wonderful Birthday.

Like a Boss. LOL. ZX your pose cnt change d hor? :D

ZX: U!! Being so cool on the outside, I would never know you are so passionate in the inside if we haven't been in the same course. Thank you for always being with me, helped me out when I was down and cared for me. And that time too, when you asked me whether i'm thirsty or not. At that moment, I know that it will be the first and the last time you doing this to me :D.

AC: You who doesn't expressed yourself much had showed the other side of yours today. What a surprise!! The time we spent together weren't much, I hoped that we get to know each other more in the future. :D

PL: You too! That kind heart of yours and cheerfulness had always washed away all my bad thoughts I had in mind. And I'm totally going to the karaoke with you for the rest of 4 years!! That sweet voice of yours really touched me every time u sings. ;)

ZL: I hoped I didn't get your name wrong >.<. You and PL are always so cute, with all those super cute reactions, always ends my day with a big smile :D. Hoped that we can get closer too ^^.

XY: I never thought that you will celebrate my birthday!! It really meant a lot to me :D. Let's get closer and be the strength to each other^^. And bring me to your hometown once, really curious about  the other side of Msia.

YY: You har, bad girl. Lied to me. Make me disappointed at first. But after that really give me a surprise lo. Hahax, siaozabor! Thx for being there for me when I needed help most, Love ya XOXO.

H: I was surprised to hear guys voices when you all were singing Happy Birthday song. It's the first time, other than my relatives, there are guy friends who celebrated my Birthday. And your voice, is really really good :D. Thanks for singing at the karaoke, really felt like I'm in the middle of a concert. And always accompanies us back whenever its late. And finally felt that you are very man when paying for the karaoke. :D Jz jk ^^.

JY: You too, who lived more than 20 mins walk away, came here. I really really appreciate that you kept your promise, to sing for us when we go to the karaoke. And you rapped My Oppa's part. It's really daebak!! I don't think I can forget that :DD. It's a pity that I didn't get to record it down. >.<. Definitely going to the karaoke with u guys again!! Its a concert!!

It's really been an enjoyable night and its kinda sad that it ends so fast. I'm still being overwhelmed by those happiness and positive energises you all gave me just now :DDD. Thanks for not letting me celebrating da-day alone, rotting myself in the room with all those videos of Oppa's. I will cherished this night until I got Alzheimer's. :DDD. At last, I hoped that everyone of us will have good health and no ones gets to repeat another sem :D Be happy too ^^

Hand. Grab. Hand

SO there's this guy, who i barely know, where we met at the faculty's general office for the first time. He's blocking half of the narrow hallway, where my friend and I are walking towards another friend of mine. I don't really saw his face, just his voice "Sorry" and him shifting towards the wall. But still our bags brushes to each other's. Do I already paid attention to him since that time? I don't really recall.

Then there's this second time where during the welcoming concert for freshmen's, him and this one typical banana (means Chinese who doesn't know Chinese) was like suddenly being so excited for liking the same singer. This singer is then i found out he is the Jason M'raz, who I was mistaking with David Guetta. That's just so humiliating. =.=. The third time is where we were being grouped as a team during campus hunt through this very lousy game. And with everyone looking at each other or at the ground, he volunteered to become the leader. Thus, named our team as hungry chickens and the slogan 'We are hungry, don't make us angry'. A great laugh, indeed.

The instance when i was attracted to him is during a game where we as a team being blind folded and as the leader, he needs to listen to the instructor's whistle carefully while the other team being the distractor. The moment his hands grabbing mine, the time where i was blinded by the dark cloth, something went through my whole body. So, this is it. The warmth of his hands bring thrills to my heart. Just as what the love songs, novels and movies says, electrical jolts from my head to the toes. It's a pleasant feeling though. Being able to have my hands wrapped warmly, makes me realised how long is it since the last time I'm being held my someone other than me. I don't know whether he felt anything at all, but all, ALL sorts of feeling ran through my body and my heart.

Since then, I'm doomed. All i could think of is him before sleep. So, this is love-struck. Unpredictable. Uncontrollable. Well, I'm going to end this feeling anyway. Seem's like he had got this important girl in his life. It's the right person during the bad time again.  There are no what ifs. I'm sure this time. :/

The greatest dilemma ever

I'm very stressed out these few days. Pimples are starting to popped up on my forehead. Like every other 20-year-old Malaysians, I'm having the greatest dilemma ever since i had born.

It's when i had to decide where and what to study for my university course. Seriously, I'm from a typical conservative Asian (especially Chinese) Family. My further study choices are just limited to those so-called professional courses, which are Doctor, Lawyer, Engineer, Pharmacy and Dentistry. I had a above average results, which means that i'm totally forced to choose those courses as they don't care whether i'm interested in it or not, they just imagined that i will handle well and graduate to be those professionals.

Since i didn't get Dentistry for my local university intake, that means the choices just narrowed down to only engineering. But the truth is, I don't like engineering. Nope, I DESPICED anything that related to Physics. I can't understand what all those theorems are for about. What I want to study is the course related to either Biology or Chemistry or both. Biochemistry really catches my eyes. I find the course fascinating and I liked what it studies.

I'm always the soft one. I couldn't let them disappointed. Does that mean i really need to give in and study Material and Manufacturing Engineering? What should I do?

Looking back and starting again

It's been quite a long time since the last post I wrote. Let me update my current situation.

• Finished STPM Term 3,
•  nothing to do until August 2014,
•  will be a Switcher in few more days. 

So, Last month(December 2013) is a adventurous and cheerful one. Immediate after STPM examination, my family and I went to Bangkok for 4 days and 3 nights. I was so excited and looking forward to it. It's been my dream to go there since 11. The whole journey is fine for me except for the accommodation part. We had basicly booked the wrong hotel as for the location of it is not suitable walking at night. So we spent our time watching TV in our hotel room after 6pm. Overall, I'm really satisfied with the Sky Train system in Bangkok. The directions are clear and written in English, and the stations are near to most of the tourist attractions. I will go there again, maybe in 5 years time.

The view of Bangkok from my hotel room window.

A week after Bangkok, I had joined my relatives on a tour to Pangkor Island. We spent only 2 days 1 night at there as Pangkor is a very small island.  The view is amazing. The water is near to crystal clear and the weather is really nice. It's just that there are too many tourists. The most famous beach in Pangkor, Tanjung Nipah is totally full of Malaysians and foreigners. It's quiet hard to find a spot where you can sit back and relax. The chalet we stayed are quiet comfy and clean. The breakfast provided is traditional Malaysian food where most of the visitors can accept. 

The near crystal clear water at Tanjung Nipah.

Pangkor Island.

After going to all these places, I had finally starting to sit down and plan what job should I be doing for the free time. After applying for numerous jobs, then Switched called. I had an interview scheduled for the next day. And I got the job! This is really a dream come true for me. I had always wanted to be a Switcher. I'm so nervous right now as I will be trained tomorrow to become a qualified Switcher. Wish me luck guys. I had done homework and I hope I will outshine myself during this time working in Switch. So, I'm going to end this. Happy New Year Everyone and cherish your time in 2014.

Love,

JC.

Sudden Hormone Disorder

Its been a while since i written the last post. Things are doing great for me starting this year. I had new friends and better grades, but still somehow i felt depressed.  I felt that there is something missing in my life. Im not satisfied by how things are now. I want to have a better relationships with my new friends. I want to be closed to others other than my current bffs. But i don't know how since i sucks in socializing. Am i being too greedy? Should i just be happy with what i have now? Im just so confused. 😞

I hope that things will go well after time. Maybe its just my hormones getting weird or what. Fighting CY!!!!! U can do it :)

P.S. Btw im watching this sooooo cool korean drama named 'I hear your voice'. Im soooo into this actor right now :)

Jong suk oppa, fighting!!!

Thanks , cute guy.

Who knew that small things in life will makes a big change to you? 

As usual, I'm going on the bus after school. There was no other place sit besides the front role with a small guy on it. Those watery eyes, reflects how nervous and doubtness he had when I sat beside him.He, 3 or 4 years old, holding a pillow which was covered with dirt, sweat over the hairs and that crumple old tee which probably is his bro's, took a glance at me then turned towards the window.

Seeing him hugging that pillow, reminds me how alike are we. There is this set of pillow and bolster which my aunt made specially for me when I'm 6 years old. I don't really get along with my cousins and I'm always the one who is left out. So, they are made to be my 'companion' and I used to carry them around. I had been using for more than 10 years and it's really mean a great lot for me. 

Looking him with his pillow makes me realized that sometimes by having one precious thing in your life is enough. It may be anything, physical or abstract, as long as it is something that reminds you of who you are and where you can share a memory of it with others. By then, my day lights on, the hardship which I bare had gone, left the lesson which I had just learnt to know. 

Thanks, cute guy.

Life of Pi

Watched this movie last Wednesday. At first I thought this was a magical-kind story which a boy and a tiger survived from ship wreck. The bengala tiger. The deep blue sea. The curly hair of his. The other three animals: hyaena, zebra and a orang utan. Then, its not. In the end, this isnt a fairy tale. He is the bengala tiger. The zebra is a sailor with a broken leg. The orang utan is his mom. The hyaena is the cruel chef. The rest I will leave for u to watch it.
The plot is organised in a quiet unexpectable way. After the movie, u won't stop thinking about what people capable to do. Then I think about doomsday. If this day really came, what would people do to survive. Killing each other? Then eats their flesh? In the end, I only could wish that you may enjoy ur life and prepare for the worst.